mai bluez

2009-08-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!!!!!
aft 2 back to back orientation camps
finalli can haf enough slp le
tho my sch starting soon =x LOL

BUT!!!! i nvr regretted going either camp
i had great hell of fun
and get to know alot of nice ppl
LOVE EVERYONE to the MAXXXXX~~~ =)
just hope my voice will recover soonnnnn
haf been very very 'sexy' thruout the whole hall camp
=x LOL

tues starting sch le
bt i still haven move in to my hostel till now~~~
LOL~~~
bt i very very happy with my timetable this sem
cuz ish just as wat i wanted
no lesson on fri~~
so i can learn my driving le
weeeee~~~~ XD
now i haf alr decided wat i wanted to join for my cca
and plus gt pageant thingy
i am so looking forward to my new hall life~!~!~!~! =)))

2009-05-29T23:53:00.003+08:00

WOOOO HOOOO~~~
ish time to come here wipe da dust abit le huh
=x LOL

today ish our 11th months anni
bt we din realli celebrate or wat
cuz i went for class dinner
BUT....

i realised smth
singapore ish DAMNNNNN SMALLLLLLL
i went bugis for dinner den come back home le
bt i saw like 10 frens during the journey?!?!?!
and wats more...
5 of them ish i met within 15 MINS!!!!!
like woooo~~~ LOL

funny thing ish dat out of da 10...
onli 1 of them ish i saw him first
others all ish they see mi bt i blur blur all da way till they called
=x
and the 1 i saw
ish straight aft i say "wah today ish wat day...keep seeing ppl..."
o.O LOL~~~
i gt so heng mahz...
so ish singapore realli da small =x

other than dat..
i oso gt to know one good news supposed to be..
BUT!!!
it makes mi sad at the same time
one of my best fren ish ATTACHED with the gal he like for so many yrs!!!!!
BUT he NVR tell mi!!!!! T~T
-feel hurt-
bt realli feel happy for him lahz
aft all those things he had done for her
-jealous- =x LOL

oh well...
shall stop crapping here...
shall see when da next time i update
tho i dun think anyone will be reading
=x LOL

2009-04-19T01:43:00.002+08:00

CONGRATS AFIFA!!!!

May You and Sham Happiness FOREVER!!!

*LOVES*

OMG!!!
i went for my colleague's wedding dinner today!!!
da FIRST wedding dinner i went to!!!
(eh..i abit mountain turtle hor =x)
neiwaie...
dats not da point

since it was a malay wedding
so there's no alcohol actualli
and when the mc crack jokes in malay
i cant understand oso of cuz
BUT....
when i see the videos and pics rit
i feel like crying sia
dun exactly know y =x
mayb cuz marriage and happines still seems very far away from mi ba
or will i even reach dat at some pt in time =x

ok i am abit crazy to think abt dat...
neiwaie...
ish just some random mixed up feelings i guess
LOL

2009-04-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

IT'S HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
WOOHOO~~~~~
finally it's my holi!!! =)

well....i am in china now
so kinda bored...
everyday kinda pass very slow =x
bt will be back on 16 April!!!
den i just realised week 0 start on 16 April oso
so meaning gonna going for the camp on 16 to 18
den on 18 nit..
gt wedding to attend~
woo hoo~
they gonna see a panda at the wedding dinner le eh
=x LOL

if anyone happen to read my blog and tot of asking mi out...
pls wait till aft i go back k?
oversea sms EXP!!!! =x
and oso...my com here DAMN DAMN DAMN LAGGGGG!!!!
so not always can login to MSN
only skype and can check email
SOOOOO.....
i can still be reached via these 2 ways if anyone needs~ =)

-hope everything will be fine by the time i am back-

2009-03-16T01:18:00.002+08:00

WWOOOOOOOO HHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~
i FINISHED my internship le!!!!
which means HOLIDAY!!!! =)

orhz well....
have not been updating for quite some time...
was kinda busy...
and realised quite a few things had happened
some of which i dunno shd say gd or bad =x
neiwaie...
i am just too lazy to list out everything lahz
hee Xp

Generally...
I am fine i guess???
looking forward to the long waited holi
and hopefully
get into a local uni~
=)))

2009-02-20T11:38:00.004+08:00

ARGHHHHHH~~~~~~~
feeling damn SCREW UP~~~~
I need a freaking BREAK~~~~

feel like loser
wats freaking wrong wif mi?!?!
i dun wanna be like this!!!!!
mayb it's just mi dat is so screwed up...

can i just get drunk tonit
and free from everything???

2009-02-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG~~~
i am officially an ADULT now!!!
tho i din haf a major celebration party like ppl usually do for 21st
but manage to meet up wif my darlings and frenz
wat i wanna say ish dat:

TKS for the wishes
TKS for the presents (tho i seems to receive more vouchers den presents =xLOL)
TKS for being by my side all this while
i know dat i din really plan anything
bt i know dat ur are very concern abt it
sorry for for disappointing ur gals wif the plan-less date huh =x hee
BUT...
wats impt ish dat
I LOVE YOU ALL to BITS!!!

i still tot dat my SIP finally coming to an end
left one more month to go
BUT!!!!
now another NIGHTMARE comes along
it was a nightmare that we tot it was over 5 mths ago
and we nvr tot dat we would come again
so we are both happy and stressed now
and i realised i really did not have ANY real holi since the start of my yr 3 eh
modules...modules+MP...MP+SIP...SIP+MP part 2???
(>.<)
wah i realli need a BREAK man...
days for me to slack ard and do things dat i wanna do
but well....
seems like it is impossible until 17 March =x

wo hao lei orh
with everything in my life

2009-02-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

Sorry...
i know just left lidat abit rude
bt i will only continue tearing while ur enjoying
rather den show everyone face after ur are done
think leaving will be a better choice ba
neiwaie ur mit up ish bcuz of angela's bday or huan yue's leaving

Mayb wat i think is not wat u mean
bt can you tell mi another reason for ur action?
i know u gt lot of commitment
ur sch work...
ur work...
ur frens...
den am i burden to you?

2009-01-31T00:06:00.002+08:00

I had a REAL BAD start of cny...
realli HATED to the core =x
emoing like one retarded while everyone else enjoying
luckily manage to meet up wif my darlings on tues and thurs
had great time wif them
at least i know there are still ppl hu cares for mi
LOVE THEM LOADS~~
-BIG HUGSSSSSSS- =)

i haf been thinking alot lately
mostly are flashback of wat happen previously
i REALLY REALLY MISSSSSSSING the old days
I dunno y I haf become like this
I used to be so happy-go-lucky and optimistic
bt now.......
or mayb this is the real me???
just dat I am pretending and bluffing myself last time
I could always console/help my frenz
bt not my own self
mayb dats how i recognise my significance in life ba
here goes my periodical emo-ness

-wo jue de hao bu kai xin, hao xin ku-
y do I still so lonely at times?
y do I still hate myself so much?
y do I still my life are quite screwed up?
y are we so close yet I feel so distant at times?

2009-01-26T10:54:00.006+08:00

I haf said more than enough
so just treat it as i am stubborn
or i am just weird
for those dunno anything
dun ask anymore
it has ruined enough ppl's mood
so just ignore me
i will be fine i guess

i am feeling better le
bt i still...
u still duno wat i am realli sad abt
u say u wan mi to take time cool down
bt u dun even know dat i am still upset
kip on asking "why why?","What happen?"
so this means that the incident totally ish not in ur mind
mayb wat i feeling doesn't matter to you ba
or how i spend my days oso not impt to you
seems like i am the onli one spend slpless nits tearing

i know time will heal mi
cuz i wun be angry for long
bt seeing you lidat realli makes mi feel like i am nobody
even ur fren gt prob u oso will at least go out wif her
but wat abt mi???

2009-01-25T18:57:00.001+08:00

today is cny eve
as boring as usual
luckily today gt work
is not sure at home emo and rot de
=x
today work super busy sia
busy till no time got lunch
bt nvm lahz
i oso no mood or appetite to eat
(>.<)
den now da store room so far away lahz
and so hard to get da stock~
keep on injured myself =.=

shall emo alone this cny...

2009-01-24T17:22:00.002+08:00

cny ish coming...
my bday is coming...
bt i feel even worse den normal days
no mood for cny shopping
no mood for anything

u said u are so busy wif ur proj till forgot
bt even i free on weekends u oso ask mi go ur hse pei u do proj
yet u gt time to go and have dinner wif her
and i totally dun even know u went out for dinner
somemore we everyday talk on phone
dun tell mi you will even forget when u just went dinner wif her dat nit
or issits dat whether to tell mi anot oso not impt to u
and callin me everynit ish just to tell mi wat time wake u up
is not da first time where i dunno abt things abt u and other gals
i dunno still gt how many more things dat i am not aware of

2009-01-21T14:24:00.002+08:00

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~
gt so many things need to be done in FEB!!!!!

1. Uni application (still need to find out abt aus de uni T~T) - 1 Feb
2. Presentation in RBS (haven started =x) - 4 Feb
3. Final SIP Report (in the process) - Mid Feb???
4. Spring cleaning BEFORE CNY!!!! (>.<)

Jan left with ard 10 more days only..
and CNY ish next mon!!!!
need to pack and clean my room b4 Sun lahz
-RAWR-

so many things yet...
so no mood to do any...
is my last month of teens le...
y cant I enjoy these time now...
must I move on to my next stage of life like this?!?

2009-01-18T15:10:00.005+08:00

sick sick sick...
been feeling sick since Tues
(>.<)
this weekends so boring...
alone rotting at home...
haiz...

-moodless-
wats da point of saying sorry...
when you dun know why i angry...
the word sorry will solve everything mahz?
haiz...

2009-01-02T23:44:00.004+08:00

MERRY X'MAS!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I know i abit lag lahz
bt just too lazy to update at times eh =x
well...
time pass so fast
another year had passed
which means i am getting closer to becum adult?!?!?!
(>.<)
bt at least this year's x'mas and new yr was quite special =)
went to darling mat hse for xmas hse party
first time actualli realli celebrate xmas
except last yr went to pub wif sab darling and frenz
it has been quite some time i see my darlings le
all oso having holi except mi T~T
took quite a few pic
and of cuz gt my retarded candid shots too =x
bt its ok lahz still LOVE THEM!!!
and LOVE the presents!!!
hope they like mine too =)))
went to jun darling hse to play mahjong thrunout da nit
den slp a few hrs b4 we go out for lunch
went hm bath aft dat den headed to meet darling's frenz for dinner and late nit movie
reach home ard 5 den slp
soooo tired =x hee

As for new year eve...
wait for the guys to decide where to meet for dinner and so called countdown till 11
(>.<)
ended up we countdown in ty's car
and he still blur blur dunno da time reach le
LOL~~~
after dinner at airport we went to play pool
to be exact...
ish to see da guys play pool =x
den think is becuz haven been resting enough since xmas
plus i gt work everyday b4 dat
so i was damn tired while they playing
then think ard 3 plus i jiu reach home le ba
den on the first day of new year
i was slacking at home whole day!!!
LOL!!!

neiwaie...
hope ALL MY BELOVED FRENZ AND FAMILY have a great year ahead
may good luck ALWAYS wif them in wateva they do
MANY MANY LOVES~~~~~~~ =)
and hope i can be da own self again too ba =x heeeeeee

2008-12-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MAYBELLINE!!!

2008-12-19T15:52:00.002+08:00

oh gosh~~~
my eyes are realli CLOSIN le~~~
zzZZZzz...
has been stoning since 1
=x=
Friday is a super not constructive working day sia
plus i was on mc yday
even da more no mood
(>.<)
after work dunno do wat oso
sianz SIANZ SIANZ~~~

12 more weeks...

2008-12-17T16:32:00.004+08:00

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHH~~~
i am so bored today~
and DAMN SAD~~~~
T~T

supposedly i haf a leave
which i plan to use on my 21 bday
BUT!!!!!
now that I going the NUS talk on one of da Wed...
my boss say i must use up my leave for dat!!!!
super da sianz lahz...
plus it is on a Mon
sure super no mood to work de lahz
somemore my office sure noone rmb de =x
tho i oso haf no plan for my bday still
bt oso better den coming to work and EMO!!!!
(>.<)

talking abt bday...
recently quite alot of ppl in da office bday sia
almost every week see one or two cakes
and my colleague even received unknown flower delivery
den we all like keep guessing hus da 'secret admirer'
LOL

2008-12-05T23:27:00.003+08:00

today another boring day at work
bt at least this week was a 2-day week for mi
^~^
ended up today i most of da time reading online comic
=x heez

aft work mit james for dinner
den my wallet gt one hole
=x LOL
no lahz...his belated bday present
neiwaie hope all his wishes come true!
enjoy ur last yr of teen!!! =x
whahaz~~~
and thanks for pei-ing me home
at least still gt u li wo =)

2008-12-04T16:23:00.004+08:00

sianz siANZ SIANZ~~~~~
after 5 days of rotting at home...
here am i rotting in da office...
realli has totally NTH to do since like 11am?!?!?!
=x=

today da weather so stupid...
start POURING when we plan to go back office aft lunch
and even wif a umbrella
to be specific....
a KID SIZE umbrella
my pants was like drentch?!?!
(>.<)

its alr cold enough here
aft da rain...
even colder now
sobz

suppose to have meeting at 3
bt till 4.30 still haven start
HOW LONG more must i ROT?!?!?!
i wanna GET OUT of here!!!!!
but i dunno where i wanna go =x haiz....

-y ish my life so boring!?-
-y do i feel so emo?!-

2008-12-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG~~~~
i went for SURGERY today!!!!!
its so drama to go for operation!!!
i tot it onli happens in drama sia
=x

was damn scary lahz...
seeing they preparing
AND....
i was awake throughout da surgery
and i can see da blood~~~
T~T

now i damn scare...
scare of da pain
scare of eating
scare of brushing teeth
>.<
AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2008-11-11T01:18:00.004+08:00

i just wanna slp
but y am i tearing every nit???

i just wanna be the usual happy gal
but y am i emoing every day and nit???

-how i wish i could just hug u and cry-

2008-11-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!
feel like crying!!!!!
tho at work i kinda numb le
guess haf to get used to it ba
4 more mths~~~~
T~T

-lonely-

2008-10-14T21:42:00.002+08:00

SCREW MYSELF~~~
da freaking emo-ness coming back again...
haiz..

when i wan to cry
always noone ish there

guess ish mi dat ish da prob ba
i am becoming a introvert
i think i better live in my own world alone ba

2008-09-30T16:50:00.002+08:00

SIGHHHHHHHH~~~~~~
aft yday's suay-ness...
today was better...
bt still suay! =x
lazy to say da details le...
cuz i cant rmb now
=x LOL~

neiwaie i now blogging cuz i kinda bored
now dat my daily work has reduced
i not su busy le
plus today ish last day of one of my colleagues
so my team now left wif mi and my manager onli
LOL~~~
by obviously...
i am slacking....
he busying....
=x
HEE HEE

buut my hp go SIAO le!!!!!
CANT SMS ppl!!!!
zzZZZzz
and I realised all mt IT gadget all now sot sot de le
1. my camera (dunno if batt, charger or the cam itself spoil)
2. my laptop (super lack, auto shut down, cant detect wireless and CD drive totally gone)
3. my MP3 (LOST~!~!~!~! TMD =x)
4. my hp (drop till cover and batt lossen and CANT SMS!!!)
like WTH lahz~~~~
IT really HATES me...

today when i damn bored and wanna talked
everyone i called are busy
haiz...

dunno how to make frenz anymore
or ish me dat ish irritating???

2008-09-29T12:44:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~
TODAY ISH A FREAKING SCREAWED DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T~T
T~T T~T
T~T T~T T~T

totally NTH goes rite~~~~
feeling freak SCREWED and EMO now!!!!
i wanna CRY!!!!!!

2008-09-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~
stress~~~~~~~~~~~
busy~~~~~~~~~~~~~
dats my SIP
(>.<)
all bcuz of da stupid financial market crisis
=x
bt mayb ish gd thing oso ba
at least i haf more exposure???
and aside from da busy-ness
my SIP was great!!!
naiz ppl
naiz environment
^~^
even gt lunch treat and workshop to attend!
=)

and my MP presentation ish next thurs!!!
OMG OMG~~~
i REALLI need to score for this sia
cuz ish my onli hope to pull up my GPA le
=x

2008-09-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

omg!
realli no mood to update my blog le eh
still haven rit my stupid SIP weekly reflection
haiz~~~

for those hu are wondering abt my nick
here's da detail:

CGPA: from 3.85 to 3.75

i know ppl say i siao when i say i nt happy abt my result
bt i cant help it!!!
i haf to go to bloody local uni!
ish like a MUSTTTTT~~~
according to my parents...
haiz...
and wat make mi even more sian ish dat...
SIP ish not grade
god damn 10 cu nehz!!!
and NOT graded!!!
zzZZZzzzz
grad wif merit NO HOPE le!!!!
T~T

i am realli tired...
tired of working so hard...
cuz i know i always wun get wat i want
always MISS by jus dat bit...

2008-09-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

GUESS WAT~!~!~!
i went to watch fei chang superband wif my colleagues on mon~
LOL
not dat i watch dat
juz dat my colleague's cousin ish da lead singer in one of da band
den ask us go support wor
den i go there see see nohz
hahaz =)
bt dat band played quite well dat nit
den we so scare our face is shown in da tv lahz
kip use da cardboard to cover our face
den so happen dat i haf 2 frenz went there oso
den they was sitting in da second row
den i saw one of them da face on tv
LOL~
bt we din stay for da result
cuz all tired le
and i was not feeling well
headache and stomach feeling funny
so cab home and slp
din haf appetite for my dinner
=x

today's work was normal
plus some physical work
dat is arranging and packing old doc
so heavy =x
den aft work jiu head home for dinner le
plan to do my mp de
bt end up din
i tml MUST do le!!!!
(>.<)

2008-09-07T23:41:00.004+08:00

one week has passed!
was quite alright
da ppl and environment there were very naiz
not so much of work yet
bt guess i may need to start handling things on my own soon le
=x

i was so blur lahz
tot that i need to submit my MP this sat
bt actualli ish next sat
(>.<)
gd and bad
more time to do
stress longer time
LOL
well...
i suppose to write my weekly reflection for my SIP
haven touch it since da first day
=x
better do it tml
^~^

orhz yar!
guess wat?!?!?
my hair dryer spoil~~~
luckily i was holding it away from myself
i gt a shock by the sound lahz
(>.<)
need to spend $$$ again le
T~T

2008-09-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

today ish my 1ST DAY in RBS!!!!
WEEE~~~~
still rmb i stil used to feel that SIP still damn far away
bt here am i NOW~~

well...
my first day was not bad
know many new ppl
cuz i am da ONLY intern from TP
LOL~
gt quite a no. of interns
bt onli me in my team
bt its ok lahz
cuz my colleagues all very naiz de
we even went for lunch tgt
and ish FREE~~~
=x
LOL~
cuz my team only gt one guy
so he today bei bully
not by mi wor =x
hahaz
we went to eat ramen
12.50++ eh
if everyday i go eat wif them lidat hor
i dun think i can save money le
(>.<)

bt today was quite slack
cuz i still dun haf access to all the systems yet
so cant do much
most of da time i chit chatting via email
LOL! X)
den did some code editing
not within my scope de
bt just do for fun
sinz i nth to do
heez~~~

SSSOOOOOOOO
overal l today was a great start i guess
at least i am working wif naiz ppl
hahaz~~
hope can get A for my SIP
wish me luck ppl!!!
^~^

2008-08-31T00:35:00.002+08:00

wooo hooo~~~
wat a day today sia
see so many ppl
bt mostly they see mi bt i nvr =x

fisrt...
saw one gal from my sec sch in my hse lift
i dunno her
bt she know me
den she ask "u fang lu rit"
she look abit familar
den she say "i from tms de"
i was like ORHZ....
den i tot she not my batch de
bt end up she say she ish =x
so paisei~~

second...
was talking to carmen on da phone
den enter the trian at tamp
talking happily till train reach semi
den i hang up da phone and saw someone looking very familiar
my poly classmate
den he walk towards me and say "u now den see mi ah"
cuz he was like kinda right in front of mi =x
LOL~
den we talk abit abt MP and SIP
den he alight at tenah merah le

third...
was walking to bus stop at bedok inter
cuz my stupid kor kor just woke up when i reach bedok
suppose mit him at MRT de
end up must go his hse
zzZZZzzz
den i heard "fang lu!!!"
i was like shock
look ard den see my sec classmates (couple)
den i ask them where they going
da gal reply "pa toh"
i was like DUHHHH~
wanted to ask where they heading nia
LOL~
den i miss da bus while talking to them =x

fourth...
my freshie
with a gal
-hintz hintz-
LOL~

dats my journey from home to bedok inter
which ish like less than half an hour?
bt i was like so blur most of da time
LOL~~~
so funny lahz

aft dat mit my mum at expo
suppose go sch first de
bt end up she wan go expo first
so we went there shopping at John Little sale
and of cuz
sinz mum paying
bought smth lahz
-cheecky smile-
1. bag
2. liquid foundation
3. night cream
not alot oso...
heez
bt aft we left le den i rmb my toner oso finishing le
(>.<)
mayb go buy when free ba
if still have da sale
LOL~

2008-08-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

BOO HOO~~~~~
i know i quite some time din update le
cuz realli gt nth much to update
besides on all the complains abt my MP
(>.<)
bt gt happy thing oso le
strawberry and kiwi ONE MONTH le~
going TWO MONTH~~~~
^~^

now ish exam period
tho i dun take exam le
bt oso wish everyone ALL DA BEST~!~!
jia you!!!!

2008-08-11T00:05:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG~~~
we need to hand in our documentations this fri to da bank~!~!~!
and we are still quite luan
(>.<)
ARGH~!~!~!

haiz...
yday i dreamt of my sce sch darlings
and i actualli rmb da dream~
guess i realli miss them huh
and jun say net mayb not coming back next new yr
den my 21st bdau HOW?!?!?!
sobz sobz~

3 weeks to my SIP
which means haf to realli rush my lit review aft fri le
STRESS STRESSSS STTTRRREESSSSS~~~~
no holi for mi
T~T

2008-08-02T15:51:00.002+08:00

BOOoooooo~
my blog becoming dead again le
=x
seriously nth much to blog abt le
my MP left less than 1 month
we still gt lot to do
and i still haven started on my lit review sinz last draft submission
oh NO~~~~~~
(>.<)

suddenly dun haf to mood to blog eh
dunno y
looking forward to 1 Sept den my SIP start le
at least wun so stresssssss ah~

2008-07-27T01:08:00.004+08:00

i am feeling much better le
neiwaie thanx for the care and concern ppl~
^~^

well...
recently i realli getting damn slack
in fact...
i has been lidat sinz da start of yr 3
=x
i dunno...
like not motivated anymore eh
(>.<)
plus da stupid tes demoralized me SO MUCH~
T~T
still haven finish my mp
one more month to go
and haf to deliver da group report and individual lit review le
bt i onli halfway done
or even less
=x
realli need to buck up le~
bt HOW?!?!?!

my mind was quite 'busy' recently
dun exactly know y or even wat am i thinking
=x
sounds complicated huh?
i oso dunno how to describe it
i feel happy over beri small thing
bt at da same time
feel upset over very small thing oso
things dat i nvr tot will make mi feel lidat
PMS huh? =x
LOL~
i dunno...

da world ish full of ppl wiff diff char
and mayb ish hard to find someone lidat
bt u nvr know u will meet someone hu ish much better in da future
yuan fen ish like gan qing
cant be controlled
bt i believe we all will find our destined one one day
as long as we dun lose hope in love

2008-07-24T20:05:00.009+08:00

i am SICK~
i think =x
well not fever lahz
or mayb i slight one?
bt catch flu for sure
had been sneezing for whole damn
can stop da tap
haiz...
bt aft talking med jiu feel better le
manage to slp a while when ju and her bf at da house
til now...
haven eat dinner yet
not hungry oso
=x

i know not feeling well must eat
bt wat to do
house noone
den oso nth to eat
guess gotta wait till nix come bring me out ba
(>.<)

or mayb noone cares oso ba
a company dinner ish more important den someone sick alone at home
wanted call my mum de
dunno y i dailed his no.
=x
neiwaie he dun know oso

2008-07-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

wah sianz~
recently like no mood to update eh
=x

orhz well...
actualli recently mostly ish abt my MP and SIP stuff ba
MP like realli need to rush le
cuz i CONFIRM will be in RBS for my SIP~!~!~!
WEE~~~
so happy lahz~
bt sadly my fren din get in
so haf to depend on myself le
LOL~

last Thurs VTB gt staff party at their boss's house
and tho we are not staff there
we are invited too~~~
to help out
=x LOL~
bt nvm lahz~
was quite fun and da ppl are naiz
they seems quite enjoy oso
and our effort are appreciated~
^~^
SO....
our supervisor treating us lunch tml~
heez...

today mit alan to catch up abit a during my self training~
i din go down bank today
feel abit bad
bt luckily nth much today oso
cuz no new template for mi
and they was playing most of da time
LOL~

realised i haf quite a bit of work to finish by this week eh
1. data mapping
2. status report
3. continue my lit review
4. mit sab darling
5. watch movies
6. mayb drink wif da ns ppl? =x

2008-07-20T00:11:00.003+08:00

went for facial today~
feel quite good
bt painful eh
=x
cuz da lady help mi squeeze out all my blackheads
really do it for my whole face lahz
den aft i am done
my fren say skin tone gt brighter abit
den plus da person keep psycho me
so i buy package for 3 more times =x
bt I like da lady hu serve me eh
she very frendly
and not pushy
^~^

aiyo~
wat happen?
tho i dunno wat u referring to for "Why am i doing this?'
bt PLEASE dun xiang bu kan wor~
u still gt lot of ppl hu cares for u de
dun hurt them eh
=x
if u need to talk to someone den find me ba

2008-07-18T23:12:00.002+08:00

aft da screwed up test
plus my ever increasing MP project scope
i finally gt one gd new today
I got in RBS for SIP~~~
WEE~~~~~
finalli confirm my bank le
bt still dunno da pay yet
hope ish higher
=x
LOL~

aiyoz~
y u say dat?
u are still my fren hu i cared abt
u will always be
plz dun say dat
(>.<)

2008-07-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

FREAK IT lahz~!~!~!!
!@#$%^&*
kaoz~
i nvr feel so SCREWED aft a test like this b4 lahz~
DAMN FICS test~
and damn it consist 40% of BOTH module~
NO SUB PAPER~!
fail module means wat?!?!?!
4.1~~~~~~~~~~
AAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~
(>.<)

feeling DAMN FED UP NOW
wif myself
so much bloody mistakes lahz
do in reverse order...
keep missing steps and get stuck...
panic
NO TIME~!

aft test i feel FREAKING HORRIBLE~
wanna cry
BUT CANT~!
haiz
T~T

2008-07-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

ARGHH~~~~
i feeling super duper sianz and MOODY~
i dunno y
haiz...
dunno wats wrong wif mi le
(>.<)

thanx for ur present
ish SSSSSHHHHHHOOOOOOO CUTE~
i think i saw dat somewhere b4 oso
LOL~
neiwaie i like blue oso
=x
bt nvm lahz~
both colours i like
zhen de xie xie ni wor~
^~^

2008-07-11T00:57:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG~
i am freaking STRESSSSED this morning~
so many things are not confirm~
my MP scope ish increasing like hell
den cant contact liasion officer
dunno how to do coding for da portal
dunno which system to retrieve da stupid data
we haf to by hook or crook must finish by mid sept
ETC....
arghz~

but HENG ah~
i finalli manage to reach my liasion officer ind a evening
and she say dat we onli need to do till BRD
well...
dat suppose to b a gd news
BUT~
it oso means dat da report templates and prototypes we had done ish wasted
=x
in fact
this project we keep like do things
den end up not needed or changed requirements
den restart again
zzzZZZzzz
now we left with less than 2 months?
can we still get an A?
haiz...

2008-07-09T00:21:00.002+08:00

wat ish ur dat way?
if dat way make u feel better
den i dun mind
mayb forgetting me will make u happier
at least u wun will so hurt i guess
=x

2008-07-08T00:13:00.002+08:00

interviewSSS is OVER~~~
-CELEBRATE-
whoo hoo~~~
well...
da 3 interviews was quite alrite
i feel lahz
they din realli ask much abt da bank itself
so we do research for nth~
=x
bt nvm lahz~
at least i know more abt da bank~
and all of them quite frenly
bt i think cs was more suay den mi
he was interviewd by 6 ppl all tgt
i onli haf 4
LOL~
and da guy hu ask him lot of qns actualli ask mi quite little things =s
hahaz
orhz well~

NOW~
can onli pray dat they accept us le~
i WAN to go RBS~!~!~!
LOL~
and nd to start working hard on mp liao
tho no pay make mi damn sianz~
i nd $$$~
=x heez~

2008-07-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

seems like u now dunno hu to talk to anymore le
and u are lost too
dunno which ish da real u
i oso dunno if da heaven ish good or bad to u le
making mi da true one for u
=x

u realli wan mi forget this frenship mahz?
bt i dun think i can
cuz to mi...
frenship ish juz like relationship
not say u wanna forget jiu can forget de
i care for u ish cuz i treasure u as a fren
ish not sympathy or wat
so plz dun feel pathetic

2008-07-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

Recently lot of changes in my MP/IP/SIP
ish so luan and complicated now
y ish my yr 3 so diff de~!~!~!

guess u feel so f up bcuz of mi ba
mayb u are rit...
i juz dunno how to put myself in other's shoes ba
bt if u feel like complaining or wat
whether wanna complain to hu
juz dun hold it back
lidat u will feel better
and i will be happier too~
i dun wanna see a TRUE tiger
not one dat pretend to be
KE YI MA?

2008-07-01T22:34:00.004+08:00

her reply:

'Sorry'
'Thank you'
'Glad to found a fren like you'
da gal know dat all these are not wat the boi wanna hear
bt guess dats da onli thing she can tell him now le
she not purposely wanna kip it from him de
juz dat she dunno how to tell him
now da gal had made her decision
and seems like da boi oso had made his
she knows dat her decision had hurt him
bt like he say
dragging on or kip him from da truth will hurt him even more
sho now da boi knows da truth le
she wanna help him
bt she dunno how
but wat she know ish dat
she will still be here for him if he wans
like she always did
bcuz this is a promise between them
she realli hope dat he will move on and get his own happiness

JIA YOU~~~~ ^~^

2008-06-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

NAFA is TODAY~~~~
LOL~
my goal:
GOLD
da results are:
sit up - 30
standing board jump - 175cm (juz naiz get a C lahz...so happy~ this is my worst station =x)
sit and reach - 36cm
incline pull-up - 20
shuttle run - 11.3s (din run properly...bt too lazy to run again...sinz ish alr A =x LOL)
2.4km run - 14.02min
OVERAL: 28 pts (5 As and 1 C)~ GOLD
^~^

to muo muo:
i juz read da last 2 letters eh
da story abt da guy and da gal was very sweet
bt guess da gal dunno how to repay him ba
she is very glad to haf found such a caring fren like him
she oso care an concern abt him
and hoping he will get his happiness
bt she realli dunno how to tell him smth
smth dat will hurt him
he dun wan see her sad
and so does da gal
she oso wanna see da usual childish tiger wor~
and she realli treasure their frenship

2008-06-30T01:34:00.003+08:00

HO JUN JUN ish on da plane now~~~
T~T
oh man~
gonna miss her
haiz...
another darling left le
y? Y?!Y?!?!?!?
LOL~
i siao liaoz~

to muo muo:
i received da card le
thanx for ur encouragement
ish very sweet of u
neiwaie...
ur muo muo write wrongly =x
LOL~
bt i realli aprreciate it~!
^~^
actualli wanna reply u in chinese de
bt my desktop cant type chinese
onli my laptop can =x
heez~

2008-06-29T00:03:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG~
ho jun jun ish going aus this sun~!~!
another darling ish leaving mi~!~!
T~T
gonna miss her LOADSSSSSS =x

yday went out wif her, sab and matt
it has been quite some time sinz da 4 of us went out le
da last time ish myy bday?
tgt wif janet~!
hus in aus now
=.=
we had damn LOTS of fun lahz~
all da laughing out LOUD
all da crazy photo taking...which ish quite RETARDED oso
=x LOL~
bt i still love it man~
den we went to jun house to play mahjong
lots of funny things happen there oso
and once again...
it filled wif our madness until 11 plus
LOL~
too bad da guys could not make it yday
happy times realli flies
yday seems so short lahz~
HAIZZZZZZ.........

den now i freaking STRESSSSSS~~~~~~~~
next week gt damn lot of things awaiting....
1. NAFA -->i wan get GOLD again~
2. WEM lab test --> still damn blur (>.<)
3. 3 interviews in Royal Bank of Scotland in 1 day! --> need damn lot of preparation~~~
4. Status report submission --> half way done onli
5. Literature review draft submission -->haven do much still
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH~~~~
T~T

seems like da % has increase
dunno if ish gd or bad
juz dun wan u to lose faith in love bcuz of mi
hmmmmm.....
actualli i dun realli know wat to say now
i am realli happy to haf u this fren hu cares for mi so much
bt now i dun wan u to do too much things for mi
i dun wanna disappoint/hurt u =x
whether can put down anot
guess onli time can tell ba

2008-06-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

today no meeting in bank
same goes for tml
realli think dat our team will get hell later lahz
till now still haven done much
=x

wah this week like past so fast lahz
now alr thurs le
haiz
my heart feel so weird now days
i dunno how to describe it
oso dunno y
guess ish juz da uncertainty dat kills mi ba
must i realli wait till dat day den can read?

u say u can control hu to dream of
does it means dat u can control hu to think of too?
if u realli can
i am realli happy for u
at least u can dun think abt things dat bothers u
juz wan u to be happy too

2008-06-25T22:22:00.003+08:00

today onli gt one lab
and realise next week i gt lab test le~
and i still dun realli know how to use da stupid software
=x
den damn funny lahz~
during lesson
ivan say wan mit mi aft lesson
den rit aft dat
alan oso sms mi da same thing
LOL
so go find alan talk crap till px and ivan called
den ivan say he need to go make police report
he damn suay lahz~
lost IC still gt so much trouble
he ish da most mafan case for losing IC lahz
aiyoz~
den actualli plan to go back home de
den ended up went kfc wif ivan while waiting for jian hua
we so random lahz
=x LOL~

mayb u are right ba
i am asking for too much
dats y i oso feel dat my thinking quite dumb
(>.<)

sinz u dun wanna say
u said i wun regret
bt den y u insist telling mi aft i make decision?
"is it fated to be this way?"
wat do u mean by this?
haiz...
just hope you will be happy aft dat ba

2008-06-24T22:26:00.002+08:00

today NO lesson~~~
SONG ah~~
bt i was damn slack
haven do any work till now
=x
think must start doing work le
now i dun even know if gt lesson tml lahz~
LOL~

will da ans dat i had planned on dat day be told?
or will another one be told?
which will not be on dat day but only other days

2008-06-23T11:31:00.003+08:00

yday was boring
plain working only
(>.<)
den today ish worst
till now i still haven haf any lesson =x
skiped morning lect
cuz realli too lazy to get up at 7
den reach sch at 10 den realise no lesson again
so we now slacking in da lab waiting for break at 12
zzZZZzzz

this morning damn funny
our hse metal door da lock suddenly spoil
den everyone were trapped inside da house
den everyone was late for work
den juz naiz when i wake up dat time juz naiz ok le
LOL~

supposed to mit ivan at 3 de
bt i ended my lesson earli again
end like ard 2?
den he juz pass mi da present
ish SHO CUUTTTTTTTTTEEEE lahz~~~
ish a disneyland tiger keychain~
da body and head ish separated and can move de
KAWAII nehz~
thanx bro~ ^~^
and i realise i haf kip receivin keytrains from frenz went oversea
LOL~
bt ish very sweet of them
at least this proves they tot of mi~

as time goes by
chances are getting slimmer and slimmer
hope is getting small and smaller oso
=x
bt i hope da promise i gif u will motivate u to get thru this though period
zhe yang wo jiu man zhu le
^~^

tiger...
sorry for causing the misunderstanding between u and them
realli so SORRY~
i dunno wat to say
guess explanation oso no use
ish not ur fault
bt mine

i know lot of ppl disagree with my actions
and had caused much pain to both of your
guess i now can only........

2008-06-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

went to watch get smart wif px
was quite naiz
abit dumb tho =x
LOL~
wah but today like crying day sia
lot of ppl cried sia =x

but i will be happy for da remaining days
whether da result will be wat i wan anot
i will treasure these days
mayb i will be sad when i think of da possible ending
bt at least i haf no regret as i realli tried my best le
^~^
sorry for making u kip thinking during these days
juz let mi be selfish for these few days ba
den ur suffering will be over
heez..

u said u dunno how to be romantic
bt i feel like as long as u whole-heartedly do smth
dat ish romantic
ish not da $$ amt dat matters
ish da tots/heart dat matters
i know u haf lots of commitments on hand
so dun say sorry

2008-06-20T21:01:00.007+08:00

today pei han xiang go buy jeans
den we watch movie
dun mess wif the johan
was quite funny
abit disgusting tho =x
LOL
da show ish 4.20
den we 4.15 den buy tix
lucky still manage to get it
heez
den aftdat jiu come back home for dinner and project le

Sorry for making u feel sho terrible
i shd haf expected dat
not da first time le
i oso dun realli wanna explain le
u oso dun nd try to defend mi
lidat will make u feel more fan onli
u alr need to rush projects
den not enough slp
plus always headache
now even so pressurized
wo kan le oso hao xin ku
i realli rather u gif up now
sinz so many of ur frenz oso dun wish u to continue
mayb they are rit?

i oso very luan now
and feeling damn shi bai
wanted set deadline to see if we fated
bt ended up told u in da end
den promise to gif u chance till another date
bt so many things had happened
will i still be able to make da right decision by then?
plz dun ask mi wat i mean
i am too luan to tell u now
oso dunno wat i toking now oso le =x
and oso not going to tell u till dat day
sorry...
dun worry abt mi
i will be fine
as long as u dun feel so terrible anymore
bt u still haf to kip ur promise and tell mi ur prob k?
if not u will feel more xin ku onli =x

tiger...
thanx for ur concern
i oso know u in a very weird position now
realli sorry
bt u gt anything oso must tell mi k?

2008-06-19T22:41:00.005+08:00

mayb u can say ish ur own prob
bu gan wo de shi
BUT THEN...
afterall...
all these ish bcuz of ME~
my presence made both of ur now thinking so much

mayb they are rit
i am not as innocent as wat ur think i am
=x

kiwi once again make strawberry upset le
even kiwi think she is such a bitch now =x
u wanna be alone
so i shall not disturb u
juz dun get back home too late ba
u still so tired

-feeling so tired...MENTALLY-

wats so great of having a relationship?
cuz someone will be there when u are down?
bt wun ur true frenz be there for u?
den wats da diff of being true frenz and BGR?
juz dat can kiss, hold hands or other intimate actions?
den dats so sick lahz~
in da modern real life...
how many relationship will eventually last longer than true friendship?

guess i realli need to get my mindset rite
and be clear abt my stand le
ambiguious relationship will hurts both parties more in da end
mayb alan ish rit
i am a gd fling rather than a gd gf
bt my conscience tell mi dat it ish so wrong to be a fling lahz~
-GUILTY!!!-

2008-06-19T17:55:00.005+08:00

wenjian ish back~
met him to talk on tues
finalli get my last yr present~
=x
LOL
bt he was quite disappointed...
dat i still haven solve my prob
(>.<)

back from my freshie's class chalet today
it was actualli quite fun
until i know wats realli been going on
=x
i dunno y there are so much to ask
den seems like my presence bothers quite some ppl oso
SORRY
mayb i shd not haf went
same impression comes back
mayb dats juz mi ba
bt this time i realli dunno y
haiz

sorry for destroying ur mood in ur class chalet
mayb will be happier if i wasnt there
=x
btw wat they say dat make u depressed?

2008-06-16T23:28:00.005+08:00

met dave for lunch at 2.30 today
he lahz
realli busy man sia
make mi starve whole morning
=x
LOL~
no lahz~jkjk~
ppl main comm le mahz
so know wat to do le huh?
-hintz hintz-
whahaz~~
we talked quite abit
lets wait...
and see when will dat guy appear ba
mayb i am wrong abt him
bt guess soon da ans will be revealed
and i haf to do wat i haf to do by THEN
=x

den met desmond and sab for dinner
i damn long din see desmond lahz~
it has been 2 mths
now he POP le
so another suffering ish awaiting him
=x
LOL~
JIA YOU~~
^~^
he ask mi:
"Wah this 2 mths nvr see u...like lot of things happen sia?"
den i was like
"HAHAz..hai hao lahz"
actualli i oso dunno how to ans him
ish it realli alot of things had happened
OR
ish juz i thinking too much le ne?
i dunno...

mayb u are rit
time will tell
bt juz hope dat ish da RIGHT one dat ish devoted ba
=x
LOL~

2008-06-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

working was as usual boring
=x
bt funny thing ish my previous boss called mi
and ask
"Where's my best salesgirl die to?!"
LOL~
he say wanna schedule mi for work again
bt i dunno if i still wan
cuz pay qutie little
plus i dun think gt dat much time le
HMMMMM...........

I am glad dat u haf sort out ur feeling
dun need to say sorry to mi
i am ok
as long as u now not so vexed and bothered by it jiu enough le
^~^

2008-06-15T00:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN LIM WEI XIANG~
may all ur wishes come true wor
ur last yr of teens le
=x LOL~

wenjian back from thai le
we both our own prob
so we gonna talk abt it more on tues
dun drag on le
ish time for decision
dun be tgt wif someone if u think u like him
bt can see urself wif him tgt for very long
mayb u shd consider dat?

it hurts to see u cry
see them sad
mayb jh ish rit dat i am causing all these prob
i treat u and them too good le ba
shd i let go?
like wenjian say
"dun drag on le..."
lidat will hurt ur more onli
(>.<)
WO BU YAO~

2008-06-14T02:36:00.002+08:00

(>.<)
today i went to bank in da morning for nth lahz~
after waiting for 1 hr plus
den realise da person we suppose to mit ish on leave
zzZZZzzz
waste my precious slp
den went to IT fair see see b4 miting px for movie
we watch da incredible hulk
da show was alrit nohz
bt realised i have been watching quite alot of movies lately
plus i still gt a few movie wanna catch lahz
and going to drink next thurs~
my wallet gonna haf one HUGE HOLE ah~~~~
=x
den went to oasis in cs slack wif other frenz
so funny nohz~
we played cards
bt cheat one =x
LOL

u ask anyone wanna go beach wif u anot
shd i respond?
da previous time i was da one accompany u
but this time shd i?
=x

2008-06-12T23:31:00.005+08:00

yday went to vivo wif jian hua
it has been quite some time sinz we mit
so we talked qutie abit
mayb ish realli my own prob
i am da one cause all these prob ba =x

wah today gt miting at VTB again le~
wake up SSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO early~!~!
(>.<)
bt at least gt progress
our supervisor coming back le~~
WWWEEEE~~~
cuz we not still quite blur eh

aft miting nixon juz naiz sms mi ask mi go out
like so rare lahz~
nixon teo nehz~
LOL
bt ish bcuz he tio ps by his fren
den he ask mi pei him go buy present
like so funny lahz
i like every yr pei him buy present once de
LOL
he cut his hair
and i think he look better in short hair lahz~
den oso not so skinny le
bt dun kip eating super lahz
later too big ah =x
whahaz~~~
and so fun tickle him!!!
cuz he today nvr tickle mi back~~
woo hoo~
hu ask him kip shooting mi
(>.<)
bleahz~

happiness is simple
for mi
i juz wan da ppl ard mi are happy
my frenz
my family
everyone dat i cared and loved
wo bu xiang anyone wei wo nan guo

2008-06-11T23:40:00.006+08:00

ur entries are so sweet
i am so touched
but at da same time
i feel guilty
(>.<)

i dunno how a gal dat u know for sho short period can haf dat kinda impact in u
i tot u juz let go of da other gal when we first time go out =x
shd i congrats u for finding someone u love again?
or shd i scold u for ur stupidity for falling in love so easily?

i realli wish u can find ur happiness
bt can i gif u da happiness u wanted?
i oso not sure...

2008-06-11T14:05:00.003+08:00

BBBBOOOOOOOooooooooooo~~~~
rotting in sch lab now
waiting....
(>.<)

was browsing frenz' blog and friendster
den heard a very familiar song
forgot da title le
abt frenz forever smth lidat de
will hear this song during graduation de
still rmb last time whenever i hear this song
i will cry
bt...
now not anymore
dunno y

ish it really dat my tears had dried up le?!
or ish i had lost faith in frenz forever? =x

2008-06-10T23:43:00.003+08:00

lucky yday nit no mosquito kiss mi during my slp
bt i still gt biten when i was using da com at nit
zzzZZZzzzz

went to watch kongfu panda today
was quite funny
den han xiang was saying he will go watch again if can
LOL
and we finally get to eat da ice thing
was realli quite naiz
thanx for da treat~
hahaz
on da way back
it seems to be a long ride lahz
as usual =x
hen lei de nehz
so CHILDISH~~~
LOL~~~
when we reach back tamp
den it starts to rain
den starts to POUR~~~
even we each gt one umbrella oso no use lahz
bt lucky i wear his jacket den nvr get wet
heez~
overall...
it was quite fun today
we laughed alot
at quite dumb things tho =x
LOL ^~^

2008-06-10T01:04:00.006+08:00

OMG OMG~~~
i woke up late again~~~~
(>.<)
for god knows y
my alarm din go off
zzZZzzz
and so suay i off my hp yday nit
PLUS
din slp well
cuz gt mosquitos kissing mi da WHOLE nit~!
ARGH~~~~
gonna make up da lesson
bt dat not da main pt
i am scare to see my student's mum lahz~
NNNNNNNOOOOO~~~~~~~
=x

aft lunch
plan to watch movie de
bt realise nth naiz except kongfu panda
bt i am watching tml
plus no free tix oso le
so ended up to party world
so funny lahz~
2 ppl go sing k~!
LOL
den saw my frenz there singing wif their frenz oso
hahaz
shall upload da videos another time
jing qing qi dai~
HEEZ~ ^~^

well...
guess ur 'Secret' is a publicly known secret now le ba
=x
i realli din know i am dat naiz eh
bt to be frank
i think i not dat great afterall
i nvr tot dat i fu chu more den my past bfs
guess their way of fu chu ish diff from mine ba
u said i am caring to everyone
bt i hope this is not giving u false hope or wat =x
i will still care for u as my gd fren
u are a naiz and caring guy too
i realli wan u to be happy
and find da gal will love u as much as u loved her
i am glad to meet someone think so highly of mi eh
and thanx for writing such a sweet entry abt mi oso wor
LOL~ ^~^

2008-06-07T18:43:00.002+08:00

If there ish no confession

den there will be NO rejection

so y not keep da (last) confession for a more confident one?

den u will not lose faith in loving someone

sooner or later

u will find da right one dat treat/love u better

SHOULD i call?
dun wan u to lose faith in love

2008-06-07T00:43:00.007+08:00

@~@
today 7 A.M. woke up and go for meeting in da bank
i freaking tired lahz
zzZZZzzz
bt at least we finally manage to meet some users for interview on our own
^~^

neiwaie...
thanx for the flowers
is very sweet of u
tho not everything go as planned =x
but really SORRY for the answer tho
guess our thinking abt relationship is diff ba
da first step for mi ish juz too hard now
(>.<) SORRY~
actually few days back
i somehow expected dat it may happen today
and it realli did
=x

2008-06-04T11:59:00.004+08:00

MUSCLE ACHE~~~
(>.<)
actualli ish only my leg lahz
after so long din run =x
LOL

today i gd gal staying at home and do work~
nan de rite?! =x
lolx

hmm today actually ish da deadline
bt sinz i haf alr screwed up my plan
so forget it le
=x

neiwaie...
my MP now started le
gt lot of things to do
bt onli 3 members
zzzZZZzzz
SOOO.....
guess i now shall put my heart into my studies le
NOT other things

dun treat me too good...
cuz i will feel guilty de...

2008-06-04T00:40:00.002+08:00

SIAN SIANZZ~
so sian of sch...
so sian of projects...
so sian of my life
AND
so sian of MYSELF~
(>.<)

oh well....
juz a random post abt my feeling now...
booOOooo....
=x

2008-06-02T23:49:00.005+08:00

omg OMG~~
i went RUNNING today~~~~
and played SQUASH~~~
it has been months before i exercise lahz
=x
LOL~

my MP meeting ends at 2.30 lidat
den went ate lunch wif px
saw james and JESSLYN and frenx
-hint hintz-
whahaz~ Xp
den he dunno shy or wat
jiu come to our table
LOL~

after they went for their paper
i mit jian hua and we go RUN~~~
we ran 2.4km~
wah i realli damn long din run le
haven even finish one round jiu start to haf stich le
=x
bt still manage to finish it
den we played squash
aft dat px, james and ivan came over
den i play wif my squash junior till 6 lidat

den i went to courts wif px and james
james like so wanna renovate house lidat lahz~
everything oso wanna see =x
LOL~
bt da most funny thing ish dat...
i SIT INSIDE da TROLLEY~~~~
like omg can~
i dun even doing dat when i am young lahz~
=x
everyone was looking at mi
so retarded~
bt i dun bother lahz~
cuz lazy to walk
LOL~

oh well...
guess i shall go slp le...
haven been slping much recently
tml still gt meeting...
and think i going to run again =x

mayb wed going sentosa
ANYONE interested???!!!
^~^

juz received a sms from wenjian
tot he's back from his ns training in thai
BUT~~~
he actually still in thai
AND
he juz sent oversea sms for mi only~~~
ish so sweet of him~~
X)
Thanks so much dude~
i will tc and will find u if need to de
u too tc there wor~

2008-06-01T15:20:00.003+08:00

went shopping wif han xiang yday
was quite fun actually
bullying him =x
LOL~
sorry for the injuries tho
BUT~
ish u ask for it de
hu ask u dun wan tell mi things
BLEAHZ~
i will make sure u tell mi next sat
-evil laugh-
whahaz~~
btw sorry for leaving early worz
thanx for ur understanding~
^~^

aside from dat...
realised recently many sad things happened
many of my frenz gt relationship probs...
some have bad experience in their frenz...
and many more...

seeing all these...
my heart feel sho heavy
bt no tears
oso dunno y
how i wish i can cry
=x

live can be very vulnerable...YET....can be very strong
so live it to the fullest wif no regrets...
before its too late

2008-05-31T01:20:00.006+08:00

was late for meeting today
cuz i set da alarm to ring at 11 P.M.
=x
LOL~
neiwaie aft dat went for lunch before meeting our tcher
den realise gt lot of work need to be done
and i realli dunno how to write my literature review~!~!~!
(>.<)
guess need to start chionging my MP on sun le
haiz...

after dat went for movie
watch sex and the city
bt while we was killing time before it starts
I got a PINK SHIT~
and many SWEETS~~~
LOL~~~
da movie was not bad
talked abt love and marriage
so afterall ish a movie
sho it is a happy ending of cuz
X)

Will i ever find da one i will love FOREVER?
=x

2008-05-30T00:40:00.002+08:00

wah today was damn boring lahz~~~
and damn no mood oso
damn sianz~~~

woke up at 12 today
still thinking wat to eat for lunch
den boon keng say he wan go back sch to eat
so i mit him for lunch at 2
den when i reaching sch...
dom called mi
den he shy dun wan join us for lunch
kip say dun wan disturb
zzzZZzzz
den after lunch waited for gorupmates at concourse
4pm we jiu finish le
cuz most of da work we split it

den see da weather so hot
jiu dun feel like walking home
so stay at lab to do my work
halfway...
ivan called...
den we talked at concourse
can you do wat you SHOULD do anot?
ur freaking term test start NEXT MON for godness sake!!!!!!
ARRGH~~~~~

guys....
always so sturbborn de
know wat to do bt jiu shi dun wan do
(>.<)

saw him twice today...
was quite shock to see him in sch
and I just called him this morning =x

i oso dunno wats wrong wif mi le
thinking about lot of things now...
haiz...

2008-05-26T16:48:00.006+08:00

woah~
went to expo yday
actualli wanna go for food fair de
bt it ish quite disappointing tho =x
den we saw gt Robinson sale oso
so we went over
and we buy so many things lahz
i spent ard $80
=x
den saw my fren working there oso

aft dat...
went home to put down those things
den slack ard until ty come join us for dinner at
SEOUL GARDEN~
wah i damn long din go there eat le
think gt at least a year ba
hahaz
was damn damn filling
den they need to buy present for christine
bt it's alr 9 plus
so most shop closed le
not much choice left
at first want to buy one machanic watch de
DAMN CHIO can~!~!~!
bt damn exp oso
$400 aft discount~!~!~!
O.o
think even i myself oso she bu de buy for myself lahz
(>.<)
mayb when i super rich ba
LOL
so ended up buy a cheaper one
ish very naiz oso de

today lesosn was boring..
i nearly fell aslp during tut
cuz was showing some movie
den da speaker so soft dat i cant hardly hear wat they talking
zzzZZZzz
and worst of all
i realised my tut dunno how to comment abt my report lahz
she juz glance thru
den say wat must haf those pts they listed
whereby those pts onli this morning den tell us
which those pts are super rigid can
and we suppose to hand in THIS FRI~~!~!
PLUS....
she din even comment more than 5 sentences
ZZZZ
dats SOOOOOO helpful~
ARGH~~~~~

wenjian juz now so cute lahz
really honoured to be a fren hu is always special in ur heart
i will keep my promise de
will think hard b4 do anything de~
u too tc wor bro~
cyaz after ur thailand trip~~~
^~^

2008-05-24T22:15:00.004+08:00

omg OMG~~~
wat realli wrong wif mi~!!!!!
i cant seems to slp well~~~~~
zzzZZZZzzz

yday nit woke up at 3.30
could not slp...
den untill 4 lidat...
finally fall aslp
den i wake up AGAIN~
look at the time
4.30 A.M.
o.O
den i go back slp again
O.o
ever sinz den...
i auto wake up EVERY 30 min!!!!!
O.O!

ARGHHHH~~~~
my eye black so obvious now!!!!!!

and my assignment ish killing mi oso~~~~
dunno even know i doing da correct things
HAIZ~~~~~~~~~

and i realise smth
actualli gt someone go read my ENTIRE blog~
read ALL my entries from da first post till now
=x
LOL

2008-05-24T00:20:00.003+08:00

AARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~
i super stresssssssssssssssss now~!~!~!~!
for god knows y?!?!?!
(>.<)
wats da damn prob wif mi?!?!?!?!

yday nit worst...
dunno y
my heart gt weird weird feeling
den even when my body and mind ish so tired
wanna slp
bt YET~~~
cant slp!!!!!
zzzZZZzzz

freak lahz~!~!~!
T~T

2008-05-23T01:17:00.003+08:00

oh noooooooooo~~~~~~~~~
i did it again~~~~
(>.<)
ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~

sorry my dear~
mayb i should tell u earlier
den wun be so hurt ba
DUI BU QI~~~
i know u are a veryVERY SWEET guy
i really appreciate all those u did
bt guess i dun haf dat fu fen ba
realli hope we can still be frenz
i dun wan lose a naiz and sweet fren

i believe u can find a much better gal den mi de~
hope u can find ur Miss Right soon ba~~
^~^

2008-05-21T23:57:00.002+08:00

went for lunch before going sch for lesosn at 3
den lesosn halfway
odm tell mi he waiting for mi again
(>.<)
he ah...
ask him dun so silly de
stubborn nehz him
plz dun do dat next time k?

aft dinner i met sab
we talked quite abit
guess i must do smth le
thanx for advice dear~
like u say
we both haf our own problems at diff stages of life
bt i believe we will able to handle it de~!~!
^~^

sorry for the lying
din mean to make u T~T de
i promise i wun keep things from u le k?
-hugs-

-feel so bad now...mayb ur should not have met mi-

2008-05-21T00:59:00.003+08:00

WEE~~~
finish my first and only RISK test le!!!
i still i tot i could not make it lahz
bt well...
thing da paper still do-able ba
tho da MCQ quite tricky
=x

neiwaie dom...
next time dun so silly wait for mi w/o telling mi k?
ish realli very sweet of u
bt dun wan waste ur time rot in sch for so long wor
meet u another time ba~~~
and thanx for walking mi to sch oso!
^~^

2008-05-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

OMG~ OMG~
yday nit my frenz dio one group of ah bengs find trouble
zzZZZzzz
like so wth can~
insist my fren say smth abt them
when we din even know they in da mac
(>.<)
they even spit at my fren
i sho pissed off lahz~
at first wan us say sorry
even when we DIN say it
den my frenz dun wan fight
say sorry le
jiu say wat
"Sorry no cure"
KAOZ~
den wat u wan sia~!~!~!
i was damn scare and worry lahz~
not dat i will kena
bt i scare my frenz will dio onli
=x haiz...
bt lucky they tot i call police den jiu went off aft spiting
this thing damn spoiler lahz~
aft dat we all damn angry and no mood le nohz
(>.<)

ARGH~~~
i gt RISK test tml~!~!~!
it has
SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOO MMMMMMMMUUUUUUCCHHHHHH
things to study lahz~
den no hint oso
zzZZZZzzz
-dying-

haiz...i still say it in da end
dunno ish gd or bad
(>.<)

2008-05-15T23:53:00.008+08:00

dom make sandwich for mi!
ish so sweet of him lahz~~
bt i dunno how it taste
cuz he forgot pass to mi in da end
LOL
bt thanx neiwaie~~
^~^

today was my first MP meeting at VTB
realised dat lot of things nd to do
and i gt another meeting at 9am!!!!
OMG lahz~
zzZZZzz

met al and dennan aft my meeting
sorry wor
hai ni miss da movie today
=x
denan ah...
he macham crawl to tamp lahz
LOL

neiwaie...
was realli glad to mit them once again
it has been a long time sinz we last met
and we realli had lots of fun
realli MISS those old days~~~
damn it~!~!
(>.<)

btw congrats to dennan~
dun be upset by the previous setback k?
at least u haf found ur Ms Right~~
and u realli surprise mi eh o
ur joker Mr. Dennan ish
SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOO ROMANTIC~~~
OMG~~~
i am so PROUD of u dude~~
u are the MAN~~~
must show us ur dat lucky gal k?
so jealous of her eh
=x LOL

look forward to the next meet up wor~
take care till den bro~~~
^~^

wonder who hu will be my dat romantic Mr. Right ne?
=x

2008-05-14T16:19:00.001+08:00

wah~~~
i am in sch from 9am to 9 pm today~!~!
and my timetable for wed SUPPOSE to be 3 to 7 onli de~~~
(>.<)
zzzZZZzz

gt MP meeting at 9am
den realise i tml gt another meeting at my MP workplace
at 10am!!!!!
can slp late again
T~T

den 1pm was my makeup tut
for NEXT mon
where gt ppl gt makeup even b4 the actual day of lesson de?!?!
(>.<)
den now i am having lab
bt guess wat we doin now?
tcher let us mug for test
and she playing PSP now
LOL~~
juz now was trying to slp
bt when i going to fall aslp
ivan called mi
zzZZZ
den px sms mi
and now...
i am awake le
LOL

orhz well...
shall start to TRY mugging again le
and our next lesson gt director come see our lesson
sianz ah~~~
cant slack le =x

2008-05-13T00:14:00.004+08:00

wah~
i so dumb lahz~
wanna skip lecture
bt i forgot ish a 2 hr lect
den i reach sch 1 hr aft da lect
zzZZZzzz (>.<)
so smart of me
and i even injured my elbow
hit da nerve there
numb diao can~~
T~T

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVE and AMZHAR!!!!
bought a cake for them today
and we prepare a card for dave oso
well...
we know u love dat card rit?
"I lubb euu dip dip!!"
LOL =x
neiwaie...
may all ur wishes come true too bro~~
^~^

hmmm...
shd go slp le...
tml 8 am lesson
AGAIN~~~
and CANT be late
or will be locked out of lect
(>.<)
wan an~
ciaoz...

i can only wait for the days to pass
bt i alr kinda expect the result le
=x

2008-05-12T00:34:00.008+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~~~
received an sms today...
"Hey fanglu, Happy mothers day! Ha"
den i was like...
LOL...
HUH?!?!
do i look like a mum????
HMMM~~~
so cute lahz my fren
LOL

well...
another week had passed
which means assignment submission is nearing
but i cant find anything for WEM individual part~~
(>.<) ARGH~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS DA JIE~~~ ^~^
went stacy 21st bday on sat~
very re nao there
gt her relatives and frenz
tho she was the 'victim' of the nit
(as expected de lahz =x LOL)
but think she had a wonderful nit
may all ur wishes come true my dear~
X)

was thinking quite alot during her party
see da close interactions she haf wif her relatives
wo hao xian mu worz
=x
-tots came by-
how would my 21st bday be?
guess i will nvr understand the closeness of family ba
(>.<)

nevertherless...

i found my guardian angel today~ LOL

"hey STOP emoing...I know smth is bothering you now...stay happy and positive!"
received this sms today
when i din even mit him or talk to him yday
LOL
so cool lahz~
he can sense my emo-ness eh =x lolx
bt ish very sweet of him~
THANx my guardian angel~
^~^
and rmb wat u promised mi oso hor
-cheeky smilez-

2008-05-10T00:05:00.003+08:00

wah body ache ah~~~
bt not as ache as wat i expected tho
=x LOL

went sch to find perline at her push cart
and pass her plaster
den went lunch wif px and slack ard till he went for his dinner
mit jian hua and talk
den when i tot i can go hm for mi dinner
adrian called
=.=
yesh~
ish adrian~
such a surprise~
bt afterall
ish da same reason
gt relationshop prob
zzZZzz

he ah...
realli dunno wat to say nehz
always fall for the wrong gal
get himself into trouble
den find mi when dunno wat to do
Can u be more matured anot adrian huang?!?!?!
=x LOL

guess i can be a part-time love consultant le eh
WHAHAZ~~~ X)

-must na de qi, fang de xia-

2008-05-06T09:39:00.003+08:00

I SO TIRED~~~
wah i still haven get used to the 8am lesson lahz
consecutively 2 days summore
(>.<)
-yawnz-

2 weeks had passed
bt i am still quite slack =x
tho i onli haf 3 days of sch
bt dunno y...
i feel this 2 weeks pass damn slow eh

and out of a sudden
i become "attractive"
LOL
first gt ppl ask for my no. while i was queueing for ben n jerry wif frenz
but i din gif as usual~
hahaz X)
den gt motorcyclist whistle me while i crossing the road yday nit
like so dumb and irritating can
i ignore them den they keep making noise
really feel like telling them to shut up can
(>.<)

dunno shd say good or bad
mayb ish juz bcuz now days i dressed up
or rather...
i HAVE to dress up
LOL

ok...i know i am being very random
bt wat to do
i am damn bored now
lect end earli
so come to lab to rot~
LOL

-YAWNZ-

2008-05-02T10:21:00.004+08:00

OMG~ OMG~~
come sch for the stupid reuter session
bt the pathetic lab onli has 12 com can use the software
(>.<)

cant use the software jiu suan le
and i cant even go my msn~~~
everyone can use their windows live
BUT I CANT~~~
zzZZzz

sinz gt nth to do...
i shall blog den...

yday dio scolded again
expected lahz
oso used to it le
i wanted to ren and not talk back de
bt end up...
still talk back a little bit at the end
=x

aft hang up the call
my mind start working again...

i know i am very lucky
still have a complete family
bt tho they are physically wif mi
we are not emotionally or mentally wif mi =x
i know everyone is diff
bt guess i juz inherit the wrong things from my parents

Dad - tends to self-centred at times
failed to think/feel for others at times
sturborn
Mum - explode when cant ren anymore

the above ish wat i gt too
good traits i dun haf
bt all the bad traits i haf
(>.<)

worst of all...
our thinking VERY diff oso
esp my dad

i not dun wan u to guan wo
i know ur cared for mi den ur will guan
bt ish juz dat sometimes cant i be abit ren xing mahz?
juz like if one day u bad mood and wanna shop like siao to fa xie
i oso not doing a crime or wat
y ur haf to say until i damn rebellious mi lidat?!?!?!
i tried to kip my mounth shut~
i realli dun wanna talk back de
bt wat u saying ish so not true~!~!~!

ya...i admit dat i nvr think from ur pt of views
i oso know dat i am not dat kinda ti tie de daughter
bt u think i wan lidat mahz?
when i see my frenz and their mum
so close..
so loving...
u know how i feel anot?!
not dat i dun wanna be close wif u
bt there's a barrier between us~!
even tho we seldom mit now
bt how many sentences do we talked?
out of 10 sentences i say
how many of them u actualli answered naizly?
i know ish my stubborn make u used to talk to mi so fierce
bt oso bcuz of dat
i am scared to talk to u

-wo hen lei le-
mayb i am realli not a gd daughter ba

2008-04-28T19:17:00.003+08:00

wah i HATE monday~
(>.<)

all my tut today in da same room
or rather
the same PATHETIC lab~~~
gt internet connect bt like dun haf lidat
lodaing DAMN SLOWWWWW~~~
and cant even login to any account AT ALL~~

somemore the lab ish just renovated de
LOOK very naiz
BUT~!

no msn
no e-buddy
no hotmail
zzZZZZzzz

OMG~
i am getting so random nowdays =x

heard he seems to be alright le
realli glad to hear dat
think will be seeing him next sat
hope we can be frenz still

2008-04-27T15:24:00.011+08:00

OMG~
sch start le~~~~
one week has passed...
bt i realised i haf been quite slack still =x
no lesson on thurs and fri...
tho dats suppose for our mp and projects
bt appearantly i din realli do so
OOPZIE~

tho we only haf 2 modules
bt the project submission is so fast lahz
one ish in week 4, another one ish in week 6
like OMG can~

worst of all...
i kinda screwed up my SIP interview
the phone interview de T~T
den all my lecturers so disappointed in me
SO AM I~~~
-SOBZ SOBZ-
its a very good company nohz
haiz....

my guardian's family back from holi le
BUT~
i still haf been going home quite late recently =x
cannot CANNOT~must be good gal le
starting next week~!
LOL =D

working now...
so damn boring lahz =x
quite slack tho
HEEz~

yday mit jian hua and wee you aft my tuition
actually plan to mit the rest of chronos aft their sentosa trip de
bt end up only had trisome dinner and talk
we talked quite abit
oso found out very 'interesting' things abt them
-hints thins- LOL~
we went for a drink aft dinner
and i mean ish realli ONE bottle of Barcadi each only
lolx~
den hor...
guess wat...
i tot i was easy enough to turn red and get high
BUT~
till den i realised jian hua ish WORST~~~
whahaz~
he haven even finish the bottle jiu whole face red till tomato lidat le
and getting very high
or rather...
he is ALWAYS high?
=x LOL

-wondering-
is it too much?
someone hu can dou zui wif mi yet romantic
someone hu cares and teng mi alot yet let me have my own life

dun wan hurt anymore ppl
juz wan everyone i cared and loved to be happy only

2008-04-21T23:02:00.005+08:00

my 'jie mei' suddenly sms mi
say wanna mit up and haf a chat
so there i went mit him at tam starbucks at nit aft dinner

we talk abt lot of things
some quite random
like our past
LOL
it was realli funny and kinda stupid tho =x
bt we had a gd time afterall
and we are realli glad we can still be such good fren till now~
very nan de nohz~

and guess wat
we now kinda experiencing the totalli opp things
he dare to love
bt i dun...
he is really a very sweet and romantic guy
so jealous of her to haf him
bt so sad she dun wan to accept him
i really hope they can be tgt one day
aft he fu chu sho much with no regrets

wo ye hao xian mu him orhz
can wei le one gal do so much things
how i wish i can find someone dat i am willing to fu chu so much too =x

-rather to love someone den to be loved-

2008-04-11T01:24:00.004+08:00

-wipe the dust-
Whoo Hooo~~~
it has be ages sinz i last blog le..

bt guess it suppose to be a gd sign
cuz this blog ish meant for mi to update when i am down/emo
bt in fact...
there's time where i too lazy to update oso
=X HEEZ~

well..lot of things happened....
bt i not going to list down...
both sad and happy...

I have let someone hu cares and loved me alot go...
bt i oso mit a grp of fun-loving ppl
aka. CHRONOS~
and neiwaie
thanx for the cake~~~
ish SHOOOO sweet of ur~
-HUGS-
^~^

i wan to say smth to da special someone...

i am sorry for hurting u again...
bt sinz i dun think i am ready for a stable relationship...
ish best to leave it this way...
i know ish my own damn prob...
bt guess i am nt matured enough to be in love ba

Thanx for being there for mi for the past 17 months
hope u can shine in ur career too~
I am realli SORRY~

*sinz i am dunno wats love, den i shall not be loved*

2007-10-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

here cums holi...
once again...
a LONG and BORING one ><

sinz when i becum so emo?
so cannot control my tots?
not beri sure...
1 yr ago? or even before dat...

i hate freetime...
i HATE my mind filled wif sorrow
WHY cant it be my happy memories?!?!
WHY?!?!

我只望每天能过得简简单单，开开心心。

why it is so dificult?
am i asking for too much?

2007-09-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

I was wandering...
where do this emptiness comes about?

bcuz...
i was to free?
=> my mind will run wild when i gt nth to do...

my life is such a routine/so expected?
=> even when i in front of da com...i feel bored/nth to do =x

haiz....

2007-09-01T00:43:00.001+08:00

WOO HOO~~~~
here's my holi~~~~
welll....
it suppose to be a happy thing...
BBBBUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
it may not be to mi =x

true...
more freetime...
but...
meaning more time to let my mind goes wild ><

haven seen dear for 2 weeks le...
realli missed him loads...
during this period...
how i wish he can be by my side..
yet...i know ish not his want oso de...
sorry dear~

i dunno y...
da feeling of emptiness start to fill mi up again...
at home..
BORED
go out...
BORED too~~~~
or mayb dun haf da rit person =x
slp????
recently, i haf to like rolling on da bed for at least 1 hr plus den can fall aslp...
T~T

2007-08-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

after a long lOnG LONG pause....
here am i to blog again...
bt in fact...
i gt nth much to write abt oso...
guess noone realli cares oso =x

well...mai sch work ish still killing mi...
project and MORE projects T~T
i realli dunno if i can get thru this...

frenz...
i realli dun wanna describ anymore...
think ppl oso sian le...
ish still da same...
or mayb worst...
cuz i realise some idiot bastard is juz pretending to be mai buddy...

i sms him...
DUN reply...
i call him...
NVR pick up...
den i tag him...
he DELETE mai tag...

THANKX huh...
like hello?!?!
u are da one OWEING MI~!~!~!
DAMN IT!!!!!
and it has be MORE than one freaking yr...

I always tot i still haf mai sec sch frenz...
bt den i doubt sho now...
mayb sum of them still care...
bt guess soon they wun animore...
they are gonna finish JC...
go NS or uni...
even mai 7 years of sweetheart vivian ish leaving le...
back to hk...

I dun wanna say too much...
no point oso...
I hate life...
I hate those PRETEND to care bt actuali dun gif it a DAMN!
i even hate bday...which i once love...
bcuz it juz force mi to face da fact that how pathetic am i...
getting worst and worst each yr...
and ish getting more cruel too...
HASN'T mai DAILY life SUCKY enough?!?!?!

2007-05-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

STRESS~~~~~~~~~~
totally dunno wat to do for the research lahz...
T~T
haiz...

days had passed w/o realising...
or rather ish passed wif mix emo??

yday when on the way to tuition...
saw da spect shop owner...
he actualli recognise mi...
lolx...
den when going for lunch...
ren shi another fren of his =x
and actualli nixon oso know him last fri...
freaky eh...
da more i dun wanna think..
da more things appears b4 mi >.<

neiwaie...i thinki nd to go get new contact lens le...
cuz da one i wearing now start to get abit blur at times eh =.=
sianz...haf to spend money again...

okiez...shall continue wif my research n revision for quiz later...
tata~~~

2007-05-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

i am realli realli damn silly can...
i choose not to say it...
mai darlings ask "Y torture urself?"
wanna love bt cant love...

bt guess i xiang tai dou le ba...
he seems sho calm...

actualli i expected this de le...
cuz ish not da first time oso...
they were alike...
sho does the 2 gals..
michelle
freaky huh?!

Y do he realli haf to do this at this pt of time?
"cuz i scare u later find out den scold mi..."
sho u think i wun if u tell mi NOW?!
as tho mai life miserable enough...
u haf to put salt onto mai wounds huh~~

i stoned at first...
collegue ask mi y suddenli sho down...
den i went toilet T~T
bt think ish anger more den anithing mahz...
or mayb juz bu fu qi ba...
y do history repeated sho similarily???
freaky huh~ >.<

-phew~-
now dat i haf told him...
feeling much better le...
think ish bcuz i haf to kiping things frm da 2 of them make mi sho xin ku ba...
was trying to make their pain to minimal...
bt guess onli succeed one =x
at least he now haf his own happiness le...

u are sho silly~~~
i dunno where u get da confidence in me...
if i maiself cant get confidence in maiself...
bt i realli wanna say smth...
SORRY~~~

To person C:
I gt nth much to say le...
n anyway dun think u will read this oso...
juz wanna congrats on ur new status...
bt gif u a piece of advice...
KNOW ur TRUE feeling b4 making any promise...
u DUN NEED to emphasis on others PAIN with ur own happiness...